i dont like how blogspot doesn't have an option to post private blogs. eh.
i think imma just go back to my old xanga then. use this blog for when i really feel like i should say something here. or to share pix.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
reasons.
late huh. 434am. what a night...
so reasons. behind every happening. behind every setback. behind every situation, God has a reason that it happens. things don't just... happen by chance. God works to make everything work in perfect harmony. we just don't see it immediately all the time. sometimes God tells you no to something that you feel should be a yes. but no matter what you think, you should always think back to who knows better, you or God? it happened to me and it was confusing on what was going on. but eventually, after the confusion, there's always a clear view of what is going on and you find peace and understanding.
wow.
it's amazing how when God closes a window, He opens a door. bible study showed me that tonight. God showed me that tonight. you really just have to trust and wait upon Him to see what He wants to happen. even though i live my life a certain way and feel that i'm in control, i have to learn that God is the one who is leading me and i have to stop doing everything on my own volition and what i feel is best.
it's just really cool how at the end of the night tonight, every little thing came into perfect perspective. things worked out exactly how they should have. God doesn't miss. everything He does is beautiful, in time.
beattitudes ftw. bible study is awes. just ask my friends<3
so reasons. behind every happening. behind every setback. behind every situation, God has a reason that it happens. things don't just... happen by chance. God works to make everything work in perfect harmony. we just don't see it immediately all the time. sometimes God tells you no to something that you feel should be a yes. but no matter what you think, you should always think back to who knows better, you or God? it happened to me and it was confusing on what was going on. but eventually, after the confusion, there's always a clear view of what is going on and you find peace and understanding.
wow.
it's amazing how when God closes a window, He opens a door. bible study showed me that tonight. God showed me that tonight. you really just have to trust and wait upon Him to see what He wants to happen. even though i live my life a certain way and feel that i'm in control, i have to learn that God is the one who is leading me and i have to stop doing everything on my own volition and what i feel is best.
it's just really cool how at the end of the night tonight, every little thing came into perfect perspective. things worked out exactly how they should have. God doesn't miss. everything He does is beautiful, in time.
beattitudes ftw. bible study is awes. just ask my friends<3
Thursday, February 5, 2009
walk,
don't run.
i'm excited for school just because i actually feel like i can sleep easy since i've studied so much for anatomy. i put a lot of effort into this and i can't wait to see that test and KILL IT!
i like how... i worried so much about how i'm supposed to handle this class with everything i have to learn. i just really had to give it up to God and let go of what I CAN DO, and focus on what HE CAN DO. 203984234th time hearing it...
"let go, and let God."
He truly provides when we ask. it's great. =D that's love right there. despite everything i've done against what He wants and what is right in His eyes, He still blesses me with what i have asked for, AND so much more.
amazing right?
right.
no. left. HAHA. hot cookies ftw.
slow dancing in a burning room; gabe bondoc. wowzers. melt my ears one more time. hahaha.
that is all. =D GOODnight indeed.
i'm excited for school just because i actually feel like i can sleep easy since i've studied so much for anatomy. i put a lot of effort into this and i can't wait to see that test and KILL IT!
i like how... i worried so much about how i'm supposed to handle this class with everything i have to learn. i just really had to give it up to God and let go of what I CAN DO, and focus on what HE CAN DO. 203984234th time hearing it...
"let go, and let God."
He truly provides when we ask. it's great. =D that's love right there. despite everything i've done against what He wants and what is right in His eyes, He still blesses me with what i have asked for, AND so much more.
amazing right?
right.
no. left. HAHA. hot cookies ftw.
slow dancing in a burning room; gabe bondoc. wowzers. melt my ears one more time. hahaha.
that is all. =D GOODnight indeed.
trouble sleeping.
just felt like... i needed some closure with my night. to go to bed with my mind at peace with God and with everything that's been getting to me.
so if you've ever read Psalm 23, it's one of the greatest comforts people can hear in times of trouble. verse 4 particularly talks about even though we may walk through the valley of death, we shouldn't be afraid because God is with us. His rod and staff give us comfort.
we are born into a world of trouble. some people say that when babies are born, they cry because it shows that their lungs and stuff are ok. but think about it... a baby was so secure in the mother's womb where it just had to sit and be happy without a care in the world because the baby was being cared for so greatly by the mom. when they were hungry, the mom provided. so some argue that the baby is crying because he/she was taken out of the comfort zone into a world of unpredictability and trouble. interesting idea... i wish i was still a baby.
i hate trouble. even though i know it's all there for me for a reason... i still hate it. it brings me down a lot and... it just puts me in a place that i hate to be. there are times when it feels like life has really gotten me down and its like... why is this happening? why me?
but my constant comfort in these times is always God's promises. always always always. dark valleys are scary but... it's not like you live in the valley. there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. i just have to remember that there's purpose in what i'm going through and valleys are just part of the natural landscape of the world. i have to go through it. and i will.
i know this is weird but... when we say WHY ME? we should be turning that around to WHY NOT ME? like... ok. i'm stupid. hahaha. i look at problems and focus on the negative. SO NEGATIVE. i suck at being positive sometimes. but yeah. why not me? because troubles are GOOD. why do we have to worry when we are being lead by the guy who created the problem. surely He knows His way around and is leading us on the right path. right? right.
trouble is like fire. it's scary and it hurts us. but it's necessary. God uses trouble to purify us. just as the analogy goes, we are refined in the fire as gold is. the goldsmith never takes His eye off of the work in progress and knows the right time to take the gold out of the fire. if He still sees impurities, the gold will continue to be refined until it is totally pure and He can see His reflection clearly in the gold.
get it? hope it makes sense and you could make the connection.
trouble isn't put it in our way to make us uncomfortable and what not. it's to help make us plyable for different situations and to build our faith and dependence on God to lead us through it. even though sheep are in scary situations like in a dark valley, they don't get scared because they keep their eyes fixed on the shepherd who is slowly leading them safely. and we musn't run through the valley but walk. you can't rush through things and expect things to be alright. you need to have assurance in your steps and where you are planting your feet.
like... have you ever seen those fences that filipinos have? they take broken glass and put it on the top so that people can't like... hop over it or whatever. but you can see cats walking on them. they don't run through them though. they take their time choosing each step wisely.
we should be like those cats. hahaha. so many animal analogies. but they make sense right?
but yeah. imma wrap this up because i wanna sleep soon. stupid school. hahaha. i just wanted to go over my notes from sunday to refresh my mind and put things into perspective.
so yeah. i guess with my problems, i always over think things. but it's just because... i forget to rely on God's protection and focus on the scary shadows in the valley. but remember, they're only shadows. they're bigger than reality and can scare us. but on the other hand, they can't harm us and most importantly, they can only appear when there is a light source. understand? coolness...
scared? what was i thinking... =P
goodnight!
so if you've ever read Psalm 23, it's one of the greatest comforts people can hear in times of trouble. verse 4 particularly talks about even though we may walk through the valley of death, we shouldn't be afraid because God is with us. His rod and staff give us comfort.
we are born into a world of trouble. some people say that when babies are born, they cry because it shows that their lungs and stuff are ok. but think about it... a baby was so secure in the mother's womb where it just had to sit and be happy without a care in the world because the baby was being cared for so greatly by the mom. when they were hungry, the mom provided. so some argue that the baby is crying because he/she was taken out of the comfort zone into a world of unpredictability and trouble. interesting idea... i wish i was still a baby.
i hate trouble. even though i know it's all there for me for a reason... i still hate it. it brings me down a lot and... it just puts me in a place that i hate to be. there are times when it feels like life has really gotten me down and its like... why is this happening? why me?
but my constant comfort in these times is always God's promises. always always always. dark valleys are scary but... it's not like you live in the valley. there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. i just have to remember that there's purpose in what i'm going through and valleys are just part of the natural landscape of the world. i have to go through it. and i will.
i know this is weird but... when we say WHY ME? we should be turning that around to WHY NOT ME? like... ok. i'm stupid. hahaha. i look at problems and focus on the negative. SO NEGATIVE. i suck at being positive sometimes. but yeah. why not me? because troubles are GOOD. why do we have to worry when we are being lead by the guy who created the problem. surely He knows His way around and is leading us on the right path. right? right.
trouble is like fire. it's scary and it hurts us. but it's necessary. God uses trouble to purify us. just as the analogy goes, we are refined in the fire as gold is. the goldsmith never takes His eye off of the work in progress and knows the right time to take the gold out of the fire. if He still sees impurities, the gold will continue to be refined until it is totally pure and He can see His reflection clearly in the gold.
get it? hope it makes sense and you could make the connection.
trouble isn't put it in our way to make us uncomfortable and what not. it's to help make us plyable for different situations and to build our faith and dependence on God to lead us through it. even though sheep are in scary situations like in a dark valley, they don't get scared because they keep their eyes fixed on the shepherd who is slowly leading them safely. and we musn't run through the valley but walk. you can't rush through things and expect things to be alright. you need to have assurance in your steps and where you are planting your feet.
like... have you ever seen those fences that filipinos have? they take broken glass and put it on the top so that people can't like... hop over it or whatever. but you can see cats walking on them. they don't run through them though. they take their time choosing each step wisely.
we should be like those cats. hahaha. so many animal analogies. but they make sense right?
but yeah. imma wrap this up because i wanna sleep soon. stupid school. hahaha. i just wanted to go over my notes from sunday to refresh my mind and put things into perspective.
so yeah. i guess with my problems, i always over think things. but it's just because... i forget to rely on God's protection and focus on the scary shadows in the valley. but remember, they're only shadows. they're bigger than reality and can scare us. but on the other hand, they can't harm us and most importantly, they can only appear when there is a light source. understand? coolness...
scared? what was i thinking... =P
goodnight!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
coldness.
but warm hearted. =D exciting
so today... well last night it started with me and donna remembering how phil and people wanted to go to dennys. FREE FOOD! sounds super cool right!?! me and donna kept trying to sleep but we were getting distracted beyond belief. we failed like 029384098234 times trying to sign off and go away. freaking phil kept sending us links. haha. well anyways... the plan was to wake up early at like... 5somn so we could get there at 6. yuckk... originally kim was going to come with me but yeah... i decided it would be better for her to sleep considering staying up late and her day of full blown cleaning. how i wish i put that consideration onto myself... freaking woke up super early and threw on my clothes. peacoat ftw. hahaha. it was so cold. so i pull up and... WTH. ONE MILLION PEOPLE AT DENNYS. the hell is that. AT 615AM!?! ughhh... they would. freaking 1-1 1/2 hour wait... not the business. we just ended up going to school for some of that PRIME parking. yennoe... the kind when no one is on campus kuz only ids go that early. HAHAHAHA PHIL DIDNT HAVE CLASS TIL 11 AND WE ALL HAD CLASS AT 8! sorry phil. hahaha. so we just ended up going to the nugget to get some breakfast. yummers. good times with gerald, the don, and arthur jeremy.
i miss those names we used to use all the time.
english class was EH. didn't write anything or learn much of anything. but i'm really exciting to have my teacher kuz he's one of the past coordinators for the wpe and he wrote the wpe practice books so yeah. i think God put me in the right hands yeah? thanks =D. then... brizzeak. study with ria ria bo biaaa. then yeah... quiz in anatomy lab. GULP. naaaaat that mess was of the EASE. too bad ria, justin, and i all got 1 wrong. hahaha. but pro nation for sure! learn about the brain for 3 hours... sighhhhhh. but it's koo. i got a lot of it down. so proud of myself! then yeah. the boredom that is geography. but we have our awes table for 5 so it wasn't THAT bad. but i was pretty tired from my day so far. then yeah. drove around the structure with kim trying to find her car. hahaha oh goshhhhh... that id =P then went to eat at panda. yummers. went home and SLEPT<333. i love sleep. hahaha. then yeah. ugly school related dilemmas that were not even worth my time... then a good night of studying and movies with kimbo. fun fun fun.
i actually wrote about my day. hahaha. weird... i haven't done a blog like this in a while. lots of blessings. good stuff. thank you God. =D
bushed. goodnight blogspot.
so today... well last night it started with me and donna remembering how phil and people wanted to go to dennys. FREE FOOD! sounds super cool right!?! me and donna kept trying to sleep but we were getting distracted beyond belief. we failed like 029384098234 times trying to sign off and go away. freaking phil kept sending us links. haha. well anyways... the plan was to wake up early at like... 5somn so we could get there at 6. yuckk... originally kim was going to come with me but yeah... i decided it would be better for her to sleep considering staying up late and her day of full blown cleaning. how i wish i put that consideration onto myself... freaking woke up super early and threw on my clothes. peacoat ftw. hahaha. it was so cold. so i pull up and... WTH. ONE MILLION PEOPLE AT DENNYS. the hell is that. AT 615AM!?! ughhh... they would. freaking 1-1 1/2 hour wait... not the business. we just ended up going to school for some of that PRIME parking. yennoe... the kind when no one is on campus kuz only ids go that early. HAHAHAHA PHIL DIDNT HAVE CLASS TIL 11 AND WE ALL HAD CLASS AT 8! sorry phil. hahaha. so we just ended up going to the nugget to get some breakfast. yummers. good times with gerald, the don, and arthur jeremy.
i miss those names we used to use all the time.
english class was EH. didn't write anything or learn much of anything. but i'm really exciting to have my teacher kuz he's one of the past coordinators for the wpe and he wrote the wpe practice books so yeah. i think God put me in the right hands yeah? thanks =D. then... brizzeak. study with ria ria bo biaaa. then yeah... quiz in anatomy lab. GULP. naaaaat that mess was of the EASE. too bad ria, justin, and i all got 1 wrong. hahaha. but pro nation for sure! learn about the brain for 3 hours... sighhhhhh. but it's koo. i got a lot of it down. so proud of myself! then yeah. the boredom that is geography. but we have our awes table for 5 so it wasn't THAT bad. but i was pretty tired from my day so far. then yeah. drove around the structure with kim trying to find her car. hahaha oh goshhhhh... that id =P then went to eat at panda. yummers. went home and SLEPT<333. i love sleep. hahaha. then yeah. ugly school related dilemmas that were not even worth my time... then a good night of studying and movies with kimbo. fun fun fun.
i actually wrote about my day. hahaha. weird... i haven't done a blog like this in a while. lots of blessings. good stuff. thank you God. =D
bushed. goodnight blogspot.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
inked.
i got tatted today. hahaha.
my niece hannah was at church today. i loooooove her! she's super cute. i want a daughter that's as cute and fun as her. she's amazing. so i took her out of sunday school and we were running around and ended up playing in the playground and she had a little pack of dora the explorer tattoos. she gave me the only one with boots on it because i guess she didn't want to give me one of the actual dora ones. hahaha. oh well. but yeah. tattoo!
oh hannahdeng... i swear. my brother and i spoil her with more love than she needs. hahaha.
hmm... so superbowl today? WOHOO! too bad im not really into sports... is that a bad thing that everyone has some sort of passion for some sport but then... i dont? hahaha. iono... it's all cool and stuff but... i never really had it in me to go out and join a sports team or decide which sport i like the best. i guess... i'm more into arts and stuff. i suck at physical stuff. hahaha.
whatevs. =P not trying to envy anyone for what they have. it's easier to count my blessings than what i lack. di ba?
that is all.
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