ama-awes-DEF!

zomg im so excited! so i thought it would be a typical night of just staying in and doing homework. NAAAAT!

i go on my flickr because... i have a list on my dashboard of the sites i check when i'm bored. so i finally get to my flickr and i have a message. i open it up and... this guy from london saw my picture and said he wants to display it in a show in LONDON called Nocturnal from april-may. it's a community based project that has a message about light and light bulbs. i forget but yeah.

HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! i mean it's cool that my pictures are online and people from all over the world can see them in computers. BUT IN A SHOW IN LONDON?! WHAT THE HECK!?!?!?! never in LIFE would i ever think this would happen. WOW!

God is awesome for giving me this joy and the gift of photography. SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!! i would love to fly out to london and be like... yeah. i took that picture. what about it? with like some super cool face like it's no big deal. HAHAHAHA!

zomy... that is super cool. out of all my circle of friends that are photographers, i would NOT think i would be the one who would be found by some guy and have my picture picked. i'm not even that great. HONESTLY. i guess i get lucky sometimes. =P

i love my friends. the fact that we can share experiences together is so great. o0o and i love how they're always there to help! lariz and i trade off when we're really tired to take notes in classes for each other. =D team work ftw! so yeah. we decided that i would sleep in today.

and OH MAN. that dream was AMA-AWES-DEF WTH! i dreamt we bought a new house but it was right next to my old one. it was SO BIG! it was kinda sad looking outside at our old house and see that no one lived there anymore. but yeah. this new house. WOW! i went out to the back and they were still setting up the garage. but don't mistake this for ANY garage. it was like... FREAKING HUGE! they were setting it up to be like... a place we would have concerts or something. that's what it looked like to me. then there was like this... weird building where apparently tv shows were being shot. and like... there were spots in the wall where we could WALK THROUGH so we could watch the show being taped without being in the way. THAT WAS SO COOL! then i remember something about... going to seaworld with like 208398429384 filipinos. wth. hahaha. i remember there being this little kid who was being emo kuz his girlfriend broke up with him and he was in a tower and wouldn't come down. so i was like... yelling at him? hahaha. iono... I SWEAR I'M NOT MEAN! then there were dolphins so lariz and i just stood watching them swim. then we got these water guns that shoot water. but the water wasn't just a stream. they were like BULLETS but in the shape of DOLPHINS. WTH!!! that was SO DOPE!.



ok that's it. i need to get ready for schoolio. -_- hahaha yay!

interesting +1

i thought this was soooo cool

i hope whoever reads this is getting something from it. not that i'm writing because i want you to hear it, because i don't. like i do, but this is mostly a blog for myself. but yeah. whatever.

so i was doing my devotional and i just read about like... the Holy Spirit how when we accept Christ into our lives, we are filled with it and our souls are sealed for heaven forever. then it said that the Holy Spirit intercedes for us when we don't know how to pray.

Romans 8:26
²⁶In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for ^A)we do not know how to pray as we should, but ^B)the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words

it just reminded me of the little kids i teach at church. like before we start and before we end, we always pray. and then... it's always WHO WANTS TO PRAY! everyone wants to TALK before about stuff, but no one wants to pray. so i end up praying and stuff. hahaha. but i thought it was so cool how God thought through every single problem we may have. a lot of people don't know how to pray exactly and get scared because they don't want to sound stupid or whatever. that's how i felt. some people would say these amazing prayers that are so long and heartfelt. then when i'd pray it's like... uhh... ok that's it? hahaha.

it's just amazing that even when we don't pray, God knows that we want to and what we need so when we can't find the words, it's alright because God knows our hearts. He created them. He had us in mind way before we were born. so He knows exactly what you need all the time. even before you ask Him for it.




like i said. it's all about LOVE.

interestingness

just some quick points from my devotional i wanted to get down before i went to school.

if you wanna read with me, joey, and ria, the devotion we read is

http://www.intouch.org/site/c.cnKBIPNuEoG/b.4943547/k.2A53/Early_Light_Devotional__In_Touch_Ministries/apps/nl/newsletter.asp

=D

well yeah. it was just cool when i learned some thing's i never really thought of. so like... Jesus was God's son right, and you see a lot how much God loved Him and always took care of Him because they were one. that's the trinity, God, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. but that oneness isn't just something between God and Jesus. we are ALL God's children when we accept Jesus as our savior and follow Him. God wants that same oneness with us.

i find that so amazing. that the creator of the WORLD. not just the world. THE UNIVERSE. so big and powerful that i can barely fathom. HE wants to have this close relationship with ME. with all of us individually. just thought that was interesting because i never really thought of it like that.

also, the Holy Spirit gives us guidance everyday with what to do. if we should do this and that. we have to face decisions like 2380984092834 everyday. and it's so great how when it comes to hard decisions, all you have to do is ask God for guidance and He will give it to you. you just have to ask. and who would you rely more on when asking for guidance? a hunch you have yourself, or the knowledge of the person who made you and everything else?

and when i say God will give you guidance, i don't mean you will hear some voice out of nowhere or you will see God and He'll tell you. it's something that comes from within. from the heart that tells you what is right. something from maybe... iono. reading something in the bible that will help you or asking the right people. it's hard to explain. something like tugs at your heart saying "THIS IS THE RIGHT WAY, I WANT YOU TO DO THIS"

and lastly since i'm going to school soon... hahaha. God always provides enough for us. no matter what. God loves us. HE WANTS US TO BE HAPPY. HE WANTS TO GIVE US BLESSINGS. and He won't stop loving you despite how many times we fail Him or do things against Him. His love is unfailing and won't give up. when we stop looking to Him for help, HE RUNS TO US. because He is our Father and calls us His beloved.

God loved His Son Jesus so much. so much than we could understand. but even though He loved Him that much, He still chose to give Him up for US. these children that barely even have that ONENESS with Him.

amazing love. it's all about love. it's all out of love.

out of bored.

today felt like... such a waste. hahaha. well it wasn't. i just slept a lot.

woke up SUPER super early to study. yuck. i hate studying. the test surprisingly was not that intense. like... it was hard of course. but i knew a lot of the things. i just hope i did as well as i think i did... then yeah. super boring long break. just print hw, write out the 30 toys i had to research for my socio project and yeah. BLAH. so tedious. i hate it. then just sit in the maxson center playing video games with justin and ria. zomy...

BORING I TELL YOU!!!

then sociology. i fell asleep again! ugh... but yeah. got done with my week! PRAISE GOD! it was one of the hardest school weeks by far. AND I DID IT! proud right? hahaha.

then yeah... went to target to buy clothes. sadly i forgot about buying some body wash... -___- which was half of the reason i went there in the first place. i guess i got too excited for buying shirts. hahaha. target is kinda stepping it up clothing wise. hahaha. a lot of great stuff. the guys section is NOTHING compared to the girls but yeah. they even reminded me of like... a wanna be american apparel with these super trendy color blank tees.

i kinda hate buying new clothes because they have those ugly creases in the shirt when you put it on. i always have to wash them. but then you wash and you get scared because you might dry it wrong and end up with a shirt half the size you wanted with a super retarded looking colar that looks like belongs to part of a brain instead of on your neck. a little joke about pia mater or the gyri and sulci for you health and human services majors. HAHAHA.

that was not funny.

then yeah. went home and got excited looking all these BIG BOXES. RJ'S CLOTHES! ALL MINE!!! FINALLY!!! so i grabbed a knife and destoryed the tape and rummaged through all the boxes. there were about... 6? COOL RIGHT?! THINK OF ALL THE CLOTHES!!!

that was fun not.

sigh... turns out one box was just full of scarves, another was a small tv, another was shoes that do not fit, and others were these super ugly jackets. hahaha. sorry rj. i had SUCH HIGH HOPES for you. you failed me...

BUT THEN... i saw the huge duffel bag. SHIRTS!!! so i opened that sucker up with the quickness. SHIRTS!!! hahaha. zomg... BIGGEST WASTE OF TIME EVER IN LIFE! i spent like... a good 15-20 mins looking and yeah. all i found was... a sweater that was like super bright blue which i do not even like that much. and all the clothes smelled like they were stacked in boxes next to a cargo full of dirty chicken. so of course, i in turn smelled like those animals.

shower obv.

then cook some amazing tilapia if i say so myself. yummy. then play catch up with some well deserved sleep. yizzur.


yay bible study tonight. i'm excited. this is why God chose to give me a van and not some awesome civic that i would spend bills on to make it jdm.

oh japanese domestic... how i used to love you.


THASS IT.

God is.

my strength
saving grace
hope
peace
joy

no problem is greater than God's provision for us to endure it and find that peace within the storm.
nothing is bigger than God.


no joke, devotionals are amazing and are THE WAY to start the day. especially before you cram RIGHT BEFORE a midterm. hahaha.



GOD IS BIGGER THAN ANATOMY TESTS! HAHAHA<333

worth it.

not only do i get to save a life...



i save money on snacks for school. HAHAHAHA!

tears.

today, i couldn't help but cry. i hate when people leave my life. it's like... one of the FEW things that break me. my God, and my loves. those two things are the only things that can break my heart like that. i just stood there in the shower trying my hardest to hold back my tears. and even now, i can't hold them back...

i think back to times when i used to hate my dad because of all the restrictions and how he would yell at me for things. that's just his character. but i took it for granted. i took HIM for granted. i grew comfortable with the idea that when i get home, he'll automatically be there. we wouldn't really talk because we'd always be busy with our own thing. and now he's going to be gone from my family for 6 months. i seriously wanted to YELL that right now. because I HATE MYSELF for not spending time with my dad like i would have wanted. i always complained that my family wasn't that close because we're always off in our own separate worlds that are our computers and rooms. but it's not just their fault, IT WAS MINE. i didn't make the effort to do those things.

i just hope it's not too late.

i love my father SO MUCH. even though he can be hard at times, i know he was always putting my best first in his mind. he told me things i didn't want to hear, but i needed to hear. he held me when i needed someone. i just pray SO HARD that when he's gone these few weeks, God just watches over him so closely that when he's in the philippines doing God's work, he'll be able to come home to us safely.

i'm even more scared for my mom. i don't even know how she's going to deal with this separation. my parents are THE BEST team. i have never met parents like them. not just because they're my own and i'm so grateful to have them, but i never have seen parents devoted so greatly to God. making God the center of everything. it's amazing. it's what keeps them together.

it's like... they're the perfect example of God's love for us, His children. my mother is the soft side that shows so much compassion. a love that never grows cold. one that is ALWAYS there to come running to when you're broken and she'll be there to comfort you and let you know everything is going to be alright. my father, the firm love that won't let you quit on yourself. the kind that is hard on you, but never too hard to break you. one that challenges you to help develop your character into the right person. but at the same time, he has a soft side that knows when you need to feel that love and just be like that mother. and he isn't afraid to show it. real men today are so stupid. you need to be MACHO and super strong and not show your true feelings. it takes courage and a real man to be secure in himself that it's ok to show your true feelings and cry or something. anyone can put up a mask, a facade. how many of you are willing to take down those walls and let yourself be vulnerable?

i'm not saying i'm a real man or anyting, because i honestly don't think i am.




God's love is so great. greater than we can ever imagine. He is our Father. one that loves us so much, these children that don't even know Him or acknowledge Him for the things He does for us all the time. He died for us, DIED. like... went through the greatest punishment EVER IN LIFE for us. these children so undeserving. who are WE that this great God would put His life on the line, His son. we broke the laws of our Lord, so we deserve death to fulfill that penalty put on our sins. but no, God said that He would take the punishment for us instead. He loved us that much. so much. a love that this world can never show you. nothing on this earth can match this great love. it's like trying to shove a square shape into a triangle shaped hole. nothing's going to fit. thing's may seem to fit and slip through, but how long does that last?



iono where i'm going with this. just random thoughts running through my head after my devotional.



have you ever done a devotional? you should try it. it takes like less than 10 minutes to read. it could change your life.

God loves you. so much. embrace it.